We are Indians. We are proud to be Indians! After all, we have culture, values, parental respect and society that values the aged! We are God fearing Indians who donate millions for setting up temples or for etching own names on even a small marble plate in some community hall or some place of worship.
Scratch the surface of this donor & you would discover the same person who donated a fortune for a roof over God has rented out his 2nd flat to make more money but his 40 year old son stays in a single bedroom alloted to him by his earstwhile donor father, that too with his wife & teen-aged kids & he is accountable for every penny he spends on his wife & children to his father because as an Indian he respected the value of taking care of aged parents. This is not my pigmented figment of imagination, I really have a 40 year friend who leads such a life and his father has rented out another house and demands accountability for every rupee spent by him on his family. But we Indians are great! We live by values, doesn't matter however low that value is.
And we believe in God... What does God do to these people? Nothing... Just like the traffic police, if you are caught jumping a signal, you are subjected to a fine, God also sleeps when such people break the laws of humanity. We say, justice delayed is justice denied. What does God do? The same as Indian Law? If He decides to wake from His slumber to punish the tormentor, the tormentor will get punished, but you get punished every living moment of life, if you are the tormented.
Open the pages of any newspaper on any day and you would come across at least one news of honour killing. Some do it physically and brutally and get caught. Most do it silently, psychologically. Find any Indian parents whose children express wish to get married to someone genuinely good, BUT of their own choice, & parents overnight get transformed into 10 headed Ravans, with each of the brains in the 10 heads of Ravan starting to work synchronously towards separating the lovers. How many Indians have seen this happen in their friend's home, or their neighbour's, or their own!
How many proud pappas of obedient daughters should be hanged till death for gifting their daughters a life time of rape by getting them married to someone other than the one they wanted to marry? How many parents should be imprisoned for life because they imprisoned their children by deceiving them into separation from someone they loved? Most do not even come to know of the tricks played by their family. They use tactics of threat, the eternal ones being telling the young man to get lost from their homes, and the young woman witnessing father or mother sitting with a filling of cough syrup in a bottle of poison and threatening to commit suicide if she decided to not make her dreams commit suicide. Such are our values.
In my opinion, these people should be stripped of the very powers they vest, their homes, their financial powers, and also their very status as parents. Yes, we are Indians, of the 21st century. Proud Indians, with culture, with 330 million Gods, but not enough human.
Sunday 30 September 2007
God - please awaken...
You always tell me to keep faith in God and keep working hard.
Professional:
You know that all that I worked hard for is dis-credited & rewards given to people whose only job in life is licking boots of their bosses. There are clients who are 100 times bigger than me, but are not ashamed to ask for favours from me. However, when it comes to providing security to me their professional compulsions suddenly become the nucleus of discussion. Where was the professionalism when they asked for and took favours?
Do you know that almost every customer expects me to cheat? Otherwise I am not to earn. The problem is, I cannot cheat. I can't cheat for the fake fear of God, so am I to languish? Why does the teaching, "Good work is always noticed & REWARDED", not leave me alone while singling me out to NEVER REWARD. Forget being thankful for the extra miles we go, there are customers who are always feigning dissatisfaction to ensure that I am under pressure and they can extract much more than they deserve or pay for.
I am into knowledge services and it has taken me years to learn what I have learnt, without help, without support, with people downgrading me at all times. Now do you know there are people who ask me, "How much does it cost you to provide this service?" As if I am to earn some profits above my labour costs. What about the years and months I have spent to learn my expertize! They will pay everyone who can demand and can take them to ranson, but I have to give everyone every single accounts statement I have to prove my costs. And then, I have to fight for profits. Why am I pitted against people who are loss makers for the companies I serve, but since they have the ability to lick, they are provided with every amenity and are provided amnesty against every crime (even forgery and conspiring against their own company and taking bribes) because their USP is that they know how to lick and suck up to their seniors. Under these circumstances I am discouraged to provide any explanations or to prove my point? I am honest, I am competent, accept me as I am, or get lost... unfortunately, I cant say it in so many words to people who should listen to this...
Family:
Family members usually extract assistance from me gave but gave me a thumbs-down when I needed help. Some of them even politiked to put me down permanently, but when they could not stomp over me, they maligned me. I will talk of 2002 when I needed work but I was summarily thrown out by a FAMILY MEMBER whose work I did for years and who I had saved from huge damages and legal hassles as also from probable imprisonment. Instead of standing by and assisting, he misbehaved with me, made allegations against me which were later proven wrong, but I had to leave my position.
Even earlier, when I was fighting for my most precious belonging, family members took anti-posture. In fact, not outsiders, but my parents cheated me and all the other relatives toed their line since their interests lay in aligning with them... after all, what could I have ever been: A LOSER!? Can you imagine being cheated by your own parents... who are supposed to be our shelter and supposed to be our most trust-worthy, unselfish confidante? But I guess, they are supposed to be... thats it. It is said that when you need advise, you get plenty of help; but when you need help, all you get is advise. Family members are like that, they come to greet and eat, but when it comes to stand-up for you, they squat.
Friends:
Friends are supposed to be your pillars of strength, but you know that so many of my friends used me as needed me and subsequently displayed their true qualities when they made it big in life. I wrote CVs for my friends who could not get jobs. I wrote not only their CV, but also trained them for interviews, mock tests and reahersals. They got the job, settled in life, but never acknowledged that in the thick of ill health I toiled for them ignoring my personal welfare. Instead of showing gratitude, they snapped contact once they achieved foreign placements which defined their career path.
You also know about my friend whose nincompoop brothers I trained to become a respectable human from the raw animals they were. You also know that I became a victim of Blood Pressure training them for which they rewarded me by unceremoniously leaving my company when I never anticipated. Do you know that they even fraudulently took away money which I have not even asked them to return? Then there is this great friend whose company I bailed out for years. Now he wants money but does not provide services and worse, he also fails to acknowledge that problems exist.
My pillars of strengths are parasites, eating away my strength.
I have lost hope - even from God:
Tell you honestly, this country is of swines, crooks & pigs. World believes the best form of habitat is through democracy, where everyone is equal. But if democracy was good, God would have been democratic, He would have been an equal father of all in this world. Instead, it is God where inequality begins. He gives opportunities to some & leaves all others to fend for themselves. Looks, ascendants, history, intelligence & money; where did God give us equally?
I know from Bill Gates' book to not expect the world to be fair with me. But then, what wrong have I done that everywhere I have been cheated? Am I paying for my past life's sins? Or am I doing wrong in this life? I do not even want to cheat my customers, when in business my only aim should be to make money. Can't God reward me for my nobility? Can't He see that I have been good to His subjects? Can't He take up my cause and punish the guilty? Why is God so helpless? He is supposed to be The Almighty. I have faith in Him since there is no one else to turn to... and by birth we are taught to pray to Him... What would He do if I am out to punish my tormentors? Why should I suffer? I am burning from within... my soul is suffering... why does He not step in? Why should He do something for me after I am beyond repair?
I have been damaged, having suffered diabetes and a hypertensive heart condition in the past quarter. Will God step in only after my death? Or would He be kind enough to kill me to not extend my suffering!
Professional:
You know that all that I worked hard for is dis-credited & rewards given to people whose only job in life is licking boots of their bosses. There are clients who are 100 times bigger than me, but are not ashamed to ask for favours from me. However, when it comes to providing security to me their professional compulsions suddenly become the nucleus of discussion. Where was the professionalism when they asked for and took favours?
Do you know that almost every customer expects me to cheat? Otherwise I am not to earn. The problem is, I cannot cheat. I can't cheat for the fake fear of God, so am I to languish? Why does the teaching, "Good work is always noticed & REWARDED", not leave me alone while singling me out to NEVER REWARD. Forget being thankful for the extra miles we go, there are customers who are always feigning dissatisfaction to ensure that I am under pressure and they can extract much more than they deserve or pay for.
I am into knowledge services and it has taken me years to learn what I have learnt, without help, without support, with people downgrading me at all times. Now do you know there are people who ask me, "How much does it cost you to provide this service?" As if I am to earn some profits above my labour costs. What about the years and months I have spent to learn my expertize! They will pay everyone who can demand and can take them to ranson, but I have to give everyone every single accounts statement I have to prove my costs. And then, I have to fight for profits. Why am I pitted against people who are loss makers for the companies I serve, but since they have the ability to lick, they are provided with every amenity and are provided amnesty against every crime (even forgery and conspiring against their own company and taking bribes) because their USP is that they know how to lick and suck up to their seniors. Under these circumstances I am discouraged to provide any explanations or to prove my point? I am honest, I am competent, accept me as I am, or get lost... unfortunately, I cant say it in so many words to people who should listen to this...
Family:
Family members usually extract assistance from me gave but gave me a thumbs-down when I needed help. Some of them even politiked to put me down permanently, but when they could not stomp over me, they maligned me. I will talk of 2002 when I needed work but I was summarily thrown out by a FAMILY MEMBER whose work I did for years and who I had saved from huge damages and legal hassles as also from probable imprisonment. Instead of standing by and assisting, he misbehaved with me, made allegations against me which were later proven wrong, but I had to leave my position.
Even earlier, when I was fighting for my most precious belonging, family members took anti-posture. In fact, not outsiders, but my parents cheated me and all the other relatives toed their line since their interests lay in aligning with them... after all, what could I have ever been: A LOSER!? Can you imagine being cheated by your own parents... who are supposed to be our shelter and supposed to be our most trust-worthy, unselfish confidante? But I guess, they are supposed to be... thats it. It is said that when you need advise, you get plenty of help; but when you need help, all you get is advise. Family members are like that, they come to greet and eat, but when it comes to stand-up for you, they squat.
Friends:
Friends are supposed to be your pillars of strength, but you know that so many of my friends used me as needed me and subsequently displayed their true qualities when they made it big in life. I wrote CVs for my friends who could not get jobs. I wrote not only their CV, but also trained them for interviews, mock tests and reahersals. They got the job, settled in life, but never acknowledged that in the thick of ill health I toiled for them ignoring my personal welfare. Instead of showing gratitude, they snapped contact once they achieved foreign placements which defined their career path.
You also know about my friend whose nincompoop brothers I trained to become a respectable human from the raw animals they were. You also know that I became a victim of Blood Pressure training them for which they rewarded me by unceremoniously leaving my company when I never anticipated. Do you know that they even fraudulently took away money which I have not even asked them to return? Then there is this great friend whose company I bailed out for years. Now he wants money but does not provide services and worse, he also fails to acknowledge that problems exist.
My pillars of strengths are parasites, eating away my strength.
I have lost hope - even from God:
Tell you honestly, this country is of swines, crooks & pigs. World believes the best form of habitat is through democracy, where everyone is equal. But if democracy was good, God would have been democratic, He would have been an equal father of all in this world. Instead, it is God where inequality begins. He gives opportunities to some & leaves all others to fend for themselves. Looks, ascendants, history, intelligence & money; where did God give us equally?
I know from Bill Gates' book to not expect the world to be fair with me. But then, what wrong have I done that everywhere I have been cheated? Am I paying for my past life's sins? Or am I doing wrong in this life? I do not even want to cheat my customers, when in business my only aim should be to make money. Can't God reward me for my nobility? Can't He see that I have been good to His subjects? Can't He take up my cause and punish the guilty? Why is God so helpless? He is supposed to be The Almighty. I have faith in Him since there is no one else to turn to... and by birth we are taught to pray to Him... What would He do if I am out to punish my tormentors? Why should I suffer? I am burning from within... my soul is suffering... why does He not step in? Why should He do something for me after I am beyond repair?
I have been damaged, having suffered diabetes and a hypertensive heart condition in the past quarter. Will God step in only after my death? Or would He be kind enough to kill me to not extend my suffering!
Wake up God - I
All of us try to do good deeds, or at least do deeds that we think to be good. Why? Because we all fear God, believe that God exists & our karma, good or bad, catches up with us. Essentially, we try to be good for our own selfish motives, for we crave to lead a good life & be rewarded by God. If there is anything more compelling, its the fear of God striking us back for our bad karma, multiplying the punishment many times over.
The primary question however remains is, does God exist? I believe yes, he exists, but now-a-days it seems that He wakes up ONLY for the rich & successful; just like the law, the police & the banks. At the temples too, there are 2 queues (if not more), for the VIPs and for the ordinary masses (And they say, for Him, all are equal).
Everyday we come across people who have similar story to tell with varying characterizations. Find me one person who has not wasted his life's important years & sometimes even an opportunity of a lifetime for others? It could be you, your neighbour or a relative. These victims have risked their lives, careers, finances, relations, EVERYTHING - for others who ultimately dumped them unceremoniously once their use was over and done with.
And pray, what does God do to their dupers? He has rewarded the manipulators. The poor victims have lived as losers to see their tormentors enjoying success, all the while burning from within with helpless frustration & impotent anger which ruins their health, social standing and balance of mind, severly affecting their quality of life and their dependents', as well as ultimately shortening their life span.
The victims are never able to pay back the tormentors because they are scared. Scared of God. If their God, their conscience within, would have allowed them to harm, they would not have taken home the bitter taste of being used & abused in the 1st place, but would have struck back with a vengeance. Since he has God within him, the poor guy is left languishing, witnessing the glory of scoundrels who ruined him while the crooked one basks in glory earned out of victim's contribution?
The tormentor keeps intimidating perpetually; only the victim's identity changes. God neither punishes the guilty nor shows them their place under the Sun. The good ones suffer because they believe that God exists, & KARMA ticks.
Time to wake up, God... make Your presence felt, I would want to keep praying to You & not be out to scientifically verify Your very existance. (Not that this threat bothers You, You might only laugh off my thoughts as "being foolish" as I keep waiting to see your awakening.)
Kshitiz (21st January, 2007)
(Modified slightly on 1st February, 2009)
The primary question however remains is, does God exist? I believe yes, he exists, but now-a-days it seems that He wakes up ONLY for the rich & successful; just like the law, the police & the banks. At the temples too, there are 2 queues (if not more), for the VIPs and for the ordinary masses (And they say, for Him, all are equal).
Everyday we come across people who have similar story to tell with varying characterizations. Find me one person who has not wasted his life's important years & sometimes even an opportunity of a lifetime for others? It could be you, your neighbour or a relative. These victims have risked their lives, careers, finances, relations, EVERYTHING - for others who ultimately dumped them unceremoniously once their use was over and done with.
And pray, what does God do to their dupers? He has rewarded the manipulators. The poor victims have lived as losers to see their tormentors enjoying success, all the while burning from within with helpless frustration & impotent anger which ruins their health, social standing and balance of mind, severly affecting their quality of life and their dependents', as well as ultimately shortening their life span.
The victims are never able to pay back the tormentors because they are scared. Scared of God. If their God, their conscience within, would have allowed them to harm, they would not have taken home the bitter taste of being used & abused in the 1st place, but would have struck back with a vengeance. Since he has God within him, the poor guy is left languishing, witnessing the glory of scoundrels who ruined him while the crooked one basks in glory earned out of victim's contribution?
The tormentor keeps intimidating perpetually; only the victim's identity changes. God neither punishes the guilty nor shows them their place under the Sun. The good ones suffer because they believe that God exists, & KARMA ticks.
Time to wake up, God... make Your presence felt, I would want to keep praying to You & not be out to scientifically verify Your very existance. (Not that this threat bothers You, You might only laugh off my thoughts as "being foolish" as I keep waiting to see your awakening.)
Kshitiz (21st January, 2007)
(Modified slightly on 1st February, 2009)
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